tranquility

Right now, at this moment, I feel at peace. I usually feel this way after ending a meditation, which I have just done (one for the chakras, specifically). I love the way my body feels and the way my mind can concentrate and focus during meditation, and usually subsequently after. However, I want this feeling to continue on throughout the rest of the day...

While doing my meditation, a revelation came to me -- something that I have thought of and pondered before, but it just came with such force that I thought I should share...for every breath we breathe in, that clean mix of oxygen and nitrogen, among other gases, our body knows instinctively to fuel our body and release carbon dioxide, a change of gases within our own system! Chemistry happening at its best. And while I was focusing on my breath and letting it become my area of concentration, I could feel my heart thump in my chest. I have been experiencing gas pains in my chest and stomach area since yesterday morning when I woke up, and while I meditated, they went away. I could feel my heart pumping away, giving my blood a richness with that oxygen I'm breathing in...and it just came to me. Our bodies are such awesome miracles. I have always felt this way, and I feel I've always known, at least in the core of myself, that we truly are fortunate to have these amazing, functioning external shells. I like realizing it more often though, as it makes me more appreciative of what I have. It's perplexing to me when people want to starve themselves or overeat either out of feelings or pressure. If we really stop and think about it, shouldn't we be providing this wonderful miracle the most healthy and natural foods we can? I'm not vegetarian anymore, even though I was for like 3-4 years before stopping. It's been about 10 months that I've been off the "vegetarian" wagon, but I'm starting to consider hopping back on it again. Chicken occasionally is fine by me, and fish is wonderfully delicious and healthy, but a lot of things like milk, cheese, ice cream -- they have been my downfalls, and usually the kinds of food that make me not feel so great after I eat it.

Anyhow, all this food talk is irrelevant today. I am doing a water fast until tomorrow morning, mostly because I've been in pain due to - I'm guessing - gas pains. I feel this heaviness in my chest, accompanied by some sharp pains, and I know this is TMI, but I've been burping more than I normally do, which is already a lot! Blah. I figure this fast today should maybe help even some things out and give my digestive system a little break. I did eat spicy curry chicken before all this pain began, so I would like for my body to forgive me. :)